Just because the sun is shining, doesn’t mean that everything is hunky-dory. It can be quite the opposite. And if it suddenly is a cold and rainy day, like it is where I live when I’m writing this, then it’s very easy to complain about that instead.
It is springtime, and that can bring up a lot of emotions for many people. Not all feelings are pleasant, and even the slight euphoria that arises can be a stress, simply because sometimes we do not know how to contain it.
Are you perhaps one of those who suffer from some form of depression when the sun comes out? When the high expectations on life that comes with the light do not match your reality?
You are certainly not alone, and it is nothing to be ashamed of, even if that is a common emotion following such feelings, making it even worse.
My personal way to handle my ‘lows’ is to find time to rest in nature. Just sitting by a tree or taking a walk, even if I don’t feel like it, usually helps. It is not so much to “fix the problem”, but to find a way to be with the emotions without getting self-destructive or blaming myself for having them in the first place. Another way is, of course, to go deeper and look into what the sadness is about.
Either way, a huge part of being alive, is to learn to handle all the ups and downs and find a still point inside of you where you can rest, no matter what the weather is like. Melancholy is ok. And it is always ok to ask for help when life is too much to handle.